The challenge of this morning 9 mile run made me really stop and voice again (to myself) why I am doing this. This morning’s big bummer: iPod froze up halfway through the run. Is it normal for an iPod to give out before its owner does?
I know that I’ve spent a lot of those 17 years (since moving to Nashville from Minneapolis) waiting for someone to give me permission to start living the life of my dreams – which would be symbolized by their investment in me as an artist. I gave a lot of power to small handful of people, gate keepers at record labels – some even friends – who I shouldn’t have. And most all of those people have moved on to something else by now. So I’m left wondering, “Who am I supposed to give my power to now?” By power, I mean, the power to tell me I’m a valid artist/person.
This amazing lady blessed me this morning with a beautiful, random act of kindness. I pay tribute to her with today’s video. She made me so happy. Now it’s my turn. Has this ever happened to you?
For too long I have listened to negative voices, even though surrounded by encouragement. Why did I waste so much time? Just under 4 weeks left of training…and CD comes out 4 wks from today!